Finding Yourself

Today my friend Erum said that I haven’t written in so long that she forgot I even had a blog. Truthfully, I don’t know what to write about anymore (please give me ideas). What’s there to say that hasn’t already been said? In a world filled with blogs what do I provide that other sites don’t. As a creative one of the hardest parts is to not second guess your instincts and let your doubts on a project slow you down from making it happen.

In other news, I really learned a lot about myself this summer. I’ve always had a strong sense of self and rarely do I let other people dictate the way I act.

“This is such an Iman thing to do” – me doing anything. 

The idea of finding yourself in your twenties is glamorized. All the self-help books are overflowing with tips on how to make the most of these years. Essentially, we’re all looking for our Eat, Pray, Love moment without having to leave our rooms. The more you know about yourself the more in tune you are with the world around you. You understand what decisions will work best for you, or why you react so poorly in certain situations. You know what makes you happy, or what to stay away from. Luckily, I was able to take a paid diagnostic test called the Birkmann which basically told me how I operate. But even little things like horoscopes or “which Disney princess are you” Buzzfeed quizzes teach me little things about myself that I didn’t know before.

The main thing I realized this Summer is that I’m boring. My idea of fun doesn’t match up with the conventional idea of fun. I would rather go on a long bike ride, or spend an entire day at the library than go out at night. A lot of my college life is me ignoring what makes me happy and doing what everyone else wants so that I don’t miss out in life. Don’t get me wrong, it’s important to do things outside of your comfort zone so you can grow, but I’ve enjoyed keeping to myself this summer. I don’t want to be forced to do anything anymore. I’m okay with skipping out on social events that I know I won’t enjoy. I want to spend the entire day cooped up in my room! Socializing takes a lot of work, and I want to spend that same energy on bettering myself. When I go back to school in three weeks I want to be at my peak.